Thread:Gaiasweetgirl/@comment-34366989-20180402202205/@comment-34366989-20180404015256

I’m glad your getting it together. Some days are good, some really bad. I swear it seems to do with who visits me or who shows they care. How shallow is that!?! I think it’s depression...going through some health things that change my mood on a daily basis. Honestly it sucks. I swear I am not this shallow. But when I see Santa has visited, even just 5 things, it makes me feel “wanted”. It’s pathetic. My doc says it’s this medicine I am getting off of that does crazy stiff to your brain. I sure hope he is right cause I can’t live this way. I never care about stuff like this. Honestly, it’s damn scary, but I have to beat it. I feel like I a, living in a tiny black box with no way out. Is there an Smulet for that? 🤣

Sorry if I sound down, I’m just not use to not having control of my emotions. I’m also not use to people (not you this time who are such selfish players. They take the joy out of the game. I look at it as if my job IS to help people that I can help...working as a team.

Anyway, got to crash. Get some sleep, really. I hope I get some also. Chat with you tomorrow. Night, Ocean