Thread:4solace/@comment-29954643-20180430192031

Katlovr wrote: I take offense to you saying you were my ‘project’. Nothing of the sort went on. You were blocked for legitimate reasons, violations of the TOU and never for personal reasons. All 3 admins at the time agreed with the block with the exception of MD disagreeing about the length of it.

I am very saddened that the experience did not humble you in any way as your attitude and actions are the same as before your first block.

For someone who claims never to make personal attacks, you sure have been doing that very thing recently all over this wiki. Just an observation. I am sorry 4, I sincerely did not have any intentions of saying another word on GEL's wall. I know that she has forbidden me, so I am posting this here because this is worth note. You may delete this and it's possible that you may be right to do so, but this comment finally made sense to me.

I did begin here on this wiki with the idea that we were all editors and that we could do as little or as much editing work here as we feel comfortable doing. My background made it easier for me to figure out the editing tools without assistance from admins, so it didn't cross my mind that there would be trouble here.

I found that I was hitting a little clique that I didn't like. So what, I thought, I will play with who I do like and and ignore the others. This was not to be as I was consistently evaluated by the clique, which turned out to be very close to AAA, so I knew that there was to be no help on the social side here. So, I thought I would edit and forget the social angle. What?, I'm not allowed to edit. For how long, I ask. I'm told that it was not my concern, that it would be for as long as AAA decided it would be. Sure, in private email, but the beginnings of the problem with the past administration(s).

Based on Kat's response above, I can now see where my mistake was with her. and maybe everryone here I did not know that the purpose of admins was to 'humble' members into submission. Boy, did this wiki come across the wrong woman. Persuasion, I can be receptive to. Praise feels good and helps to motivate me. Reasonable explanations for technical (editing) decisions are almost a requirement with me. Mostly what I experienced from the past administration(s) was utter humiliation and anger.

I believe, 4, that none of the current administration hold the belief that their purpose is to 'humble' anyone ever. Although, I will never be a good choice as an admin here, I believe that removal of the right of any member to be willing to volunteer as an admin here is a symbol of this communities continued devaluation of me as a member, an editor and a very personal embarrassment that may stay with me and this community for a long time to come. Further discussions about my fitness to be a valuable and equal member here may sound like mere drama to some, but is very personal to me and would be to anyone in my place. - El

P.S. Sorry, 4, this wound is not healed yet. The scab keeps getting yanked off. And, to my knowledge I was only blocked once here and never anywhere else. I hope that I don't have to worry about another block on me pending??? 