Thread:KJ8/@comment-64.30.85.239-20161230064836/@comment-27990581-20161230110139

Hi! Thank you for thinking of me. I promise I'll reply to all messages, yours and from other friends when I'm back on track. Happy 2017 to you too. Let it be amazing! :)

I'm having really hard time dealing with withdrawal symptoms. I didnt' know it would be so hard. Those mean voices are here again (those that were born when I started with ADs), headache, nausea, vertigo, sleepiness, ... I'm drunk without drinking anything. One minute I'm so mad and the other I'm sad. And yes, these damn pills do give you suicidal wishes - when you start taking them and when you throw them away. I just hope it wont take 2 months like it did at the beginning, 'cause...I can't take this shit much longer. I smoked a cigarette yesterday. The first one after April. I won't go there again. It stinks. And my lungs won't take it. It's like I'm hungry and thirsty at the same time, I need something, I don't know what, but I'm so damn empty. I don't even know what I'm writing about, I don't remember how I started, what was the first sentence. Crying now, don't know why. I'm sorry, Doli.