Thread:Oceanfront/@comment-33299993-20180202203037/@comment-34366989-20180604004006

That medication destroyed my life for over a year. It was me that figured out what the problem was. I mean, I do very complicated negotiations everyday, before the medication. After, my head was in a fog, couldn’t think, scared, depressed, immobile etc. luckily, I have always been a strong person and I didn’t give up. None of my doctors believe I am doing this on my own....took 3 months. Frankly, it was at a point where I didn’t want to go on. No quality of life, and I love my work but couldn’t talk to anyone, and was scared to leave the house. 🤐 That’s when I found this place, which kept my mind occupied so I wouldn’t get like Poor Wee. Then one day it occurred to me when it started was very close to when I started that medication. I even checked my plane tickets (that doc is somewhere else), and I said Ureka! Helen, I feel like a totally different person then just last week. I am not where I was before, but now I know I will be. I was so scared, as were all my friends. They didn’t know what was happening...especially after I fell...then the surgeries..yikes. I have no idea why I am writing all this, but I think I need to remember how I was, and not forget it, so I don’t get frustrated while I get back to myself. I will never take a new medication without journaling how I feel for the first month.

Sorry for vomiting on you, but you always say the right thing. I am so impressed with your compassion and communication with Wee. You are a person with a very good heart, which is why you are really the only person I “really” chat with. Guess that makes you my shrink ! 😝

But seriously, I can now see the sun through the clouds. I know I will get back to where I was. The only problem is as you get older your mind is willing, but my body is not willing as much. That is one of the reasons I am going to the Endocrenologist...I have to find what I am low in that is making me exhausted so easily. I did blood work and had no Vitamin D (can you imagine living in Arizona!) and no potassium. Those were just normal tests by my Internist. Also no hormones...I want this over with as soon as possible. It’s hard to want to go to the gym and rehab my back.

I also want to thank you. You have been a positive force for me. Someone warm and compassionate to talk to. You would be surprised how important that is when you are confused most of the time, and don’t understand why. Thanks. Anyway, I will erase all this after you read it. It is too weird a story to share with others who don’t really know me.

Ocean

Thanks for being here. Your an amazing “real” person, and Inknow people because of the work I do. ;-)