Thread:4solace/@comment-34076922-20190123051958/@comment-28482541-20190123054712

Thank you for your kind words Gaia. I decided months ago that I would not put my name in to be admin again. I like to think I have helped in some areas despite my lack of editing knowledge. It is completely different being an admin than a regular member. While I have learned a lot and been able to help in some areas, my experience has had the unintended consequence of me totally dreading even checking in on the wiki. I miss when I loved this place. I do not know if I can again once I hang up the admin mantel, or if it will be forever changed for me and I will simply check in less and less until I simply don’t come here anymore.

As of late though, my health has become an even larger issue. I have had two sinus surgeries in two months and am now experiencing complications. I have developed CSF, or cerebrospinal fluid leak, the fluid around my brain and spine is now leaking out of my nose. For now I am on medication and bed rest for two weeks. My doctor seems optimistic that this will be enough to heal it. I go back in two weeks for another check and if at that time it is still leaking, then another surgery will be required.

It really focuses one’s perspective on what’s important and what needs to be let go. So it just reaffirms for me my decision to not put my name in again.