Thread:Merrimack/@comment-26424426-20170723072616

I read your profile post and feel so sad because you have made so many contributions to our community, and have helped so many. You and I had our ups-and-downs but I always knew you had an open, understanding, respecting and forgiving heart, and knew I could always come hat in hand to you without fear. Same with our Boo. Heck, even AAA and I have had our differences.

The last few days I've come to feel the same -- I am posted around and not really a part of things. I am a bit nervous posting on anyone's wall. That's okay. People feel what they feel, and so I respect this. I caused this; it's my responsibility alone. Things change. I had a good run for a while.

I intruded on discussions that did not involve me. Even if my intentions were good -- to support someone -- the point is I wasn't asked to be involved. I should have kept my big mouth shut. I wish I had had the wisdom of several here who showed the proper restraint. I am too old to behave like a teen -- I was never in with the popular kids, quite the opposite, and I should have realized now what I understood back then -- to keep my head down.

So...I am taking your advice and that of Lidewey's in her thread with 4solace -- stepping away to just responding on my wall if anyone does post there. I feel I am viewed as one who agitated and hurt people. That I am unkind. No longer held in regard.

That I let the community down pains me, and I apologize wholeheartedly even if no one believes me or cares. Again, that my doing, my fault.

I will be playing quietly. If someone wants to add me, just let me know. If someone wants to delete me, please know I accept your decision without question or assumption.

I wish you and everyone here well, as well as for peace and joy to return in our community. For those wanting to stay in touch with me, you know how to reach me. Merri, I hope you will be one of those friends. If not, I'll understand and miss you with gratitude.

Thanks, Merri, for being the brave voice you are. 