Thread:Oceanfront/@comment-33299993-20180731154623/@comment-34366989-20180808054902

I totally agree BP is affected by stress, and I am sure some of this is from that. The only reason I think it’s also from the bad drug is the way the onset was so sudden and strange.

I have other symptoms I know are connected to the situation at work, such as my hands shaking when I go to log in...yes, it’s gotten that bad. I have a dream job..at least do me. I get to work from home, get paid excellent and no one ever bugged me. My old Director would have a discussion with me about what we think we need, and I would go do it...fast and excellent quality. I was never bugged. Any presentations I did, she presented directly to the Commissioner, the top man on the totem pole, and he was always happy. I spent long hours, but I didn’t mind because the work was important and well received, and I loved making her look good. She was one smart lady...an attorney also, as was the Deputy Director. She left because she got a better job offer that increased her salary By over $50k. Normally you get paid by grade, but the new agency has a special scale. It broke all our hearts. The new folks that came in, the commissioner won’t even meet with anymore. He kicked them down to the Deputy and told him to “fix” it. Very embarrassing for the unit. The quality of her work is an embarrassment. Our reputation has suffered badly and I have no doubt the sh*t is going to hit the fan sooner than later. In fact, I have a feeling the unit won’t survive because of the terrible quality of the leadership.

I have assessed the situation, but I haven’t made the final decision. I keep thinking someone will get rid of the top couple people, which could change my view on the situation. But right now it’s unlikely because of all the things going on politically. Also, I could stay the extra year I wanted to and fly under the radar, but that just isn’t my style. If you pay me, I deliver what I expect is deserved considering my title and position. There are a lot of people sitting around doing nothing and waiting to retire. I think that is dishonest and I would nit feel comfortable. Plus, I would still be stressed out. Humm, maybe I did make my decision today. Lol Thanks for being a sounding board, as I feel stronger now in my position. Health first. Just not sure what I will do with all my free time...maybe gift a lot more. ! I can do my private practice, but the flying is very hard on me now.

Thanks again for your input. You really helped me think this through and I really appreciate it. Night. 🐶