Thread:BronwynT/@comment-27294075-20161204032142/@comment-192.235.243.142-20161205033522

Hello sweet lady. Hope this message finds you well and enjoying your time with the holidays approaching. I always appreciate you checking in on me and the lovely gifts you send. You are always so thoughtful. So Where do I start ? The last 3 SS challenges have been back to back which makes things so difficult. I barely had enough time to clean out my gifts with doing everything else. I just skimmed by on this last challenge bc I had been gifted some train tickets. Otherwise I'm quite certain I would not have finished on time. They are making these challenges harder and harder. I feel very lucky to have special friends like yourself who concern yourself with me. Things around here have been a little crazy. I finished my chemo first week of September. Everything seemed to stabilize for a while and then my cancer marker has started escalating again. I go back and forth and back and forth to the clinic. Sometimes feeling like a robot or on auto pilot. Clinic here, lab there, ct scan, a needle in my arm for the millionth time, etc. Always trying to keep my sh!t together. But honestly sometimes it's really really hard. My medications have been switched a number of times now already so I am waiting to see what my blood results will be in the next couple of weeks. If this new medication does not work I will have to start chemo again. It shatters me to the core. I spent a day having a pity party and then pick myself up. I don't want to think about how things will be if I have to do that again - I have the worst side effects. Yet the sum total of all treatment over these past 3 years is what has kept me here. So I know if that's what I have to do I will get on with it. So for now I am trying to focus on having a nice Xmas with my family and making sure the kids have nice memories and yes we do spoil them :) as they are fantastic kids and deserve being spoiled. Ohhh and I guess I am focusing yet again on another damn SS challenge lol.  So what's new with you ? Take care of yourself Betty and have a fantastic Xmas xxx ❤️🌺🎁🌲🌹🌷🌼🌸💐🌻