Thread:BronwynT/@comment-29085573-20161203162612/@comment-29723850-20161205192113

Joann, my dear friend. I'm so sorry I missed ur post. Seems my email has been selective as to whom I receive mail from lol. Went into my junk folder and found all kinds of incorrectly filtered email 😳. I really hope this message finds you and family well and looking forward to the holiday season. I always appreciate you checking in on me and the lovely gifts you send. You are always so thoughtful keeping me on your mind. So Where do I start- you may have read my post to GEL so I am sorry if I repeat some info. The last 3 SS challenges have been back to back which makes things so difficult. I barely had enough time to clean out my gifts with doing everything else. I just skimmed by on this last challenge bc I had been generously gifted some train tickets (was that you)😁 ? I feel very lucky to have special friends like yourself who concern yourself with me. Things around here have been a little crazy. As you may know I finished my chemo first week of September. Everything seemed to stabilize for a while and then my cancer marker has started escalating again. I go back and forth and back and forth to the clinic. Sometimes feeling like a robot or on auto pilot. Clinic here, lab there, ct scan, a needle in my arm for the millionth time, etc. Always trying to keep my sh!t together. But honestly sometimes it's really really hard. My medications have been switched a number of times now already so I am waiting to see what my blood results will be in the next couple of weeks. If this new medication does not work I will have to start chemo again. It shatters me to the core. I spent a day having a pity party and then pick myself up. I don't want to think about how things will be if I have to do that again - I have the worst side effects. Yet the sum total of all treatment over these past 3 years is what has kept me here. So I know if that's what I have to do I will get on with it. So for now I am trying to focus on having a nice Xmas with my family and making sure the kids have nice memories and yes we do spoil them :) as they are fantastic kids and deserve being spoiled. Ohhh and I guess I am focusing yet again on another damn SS challenge lol. I am also doing some Xmas volunteering delivering Santa boxes within my area. Focuses my thoughts on how grateful I am for my life (cancer or not). The other day when I was delivering on Saturday I went to an apartment building and knocked on the door - two boxes in hand.  After knocking and waiting the door slowly opened and the smallest girl peered out from behind the crack in the door. She looked to be about 7 at the most.  I said honey is your mummy home ? No she stated she's at work and then the door opened a little bit more and there was her baby sister standing there in her diaper.  I didn't want to leave these precious babies. I gave the girls their Xmas boxes and made them promise me that they would not open the door for anyone else. I'm a little bit haunted by them now. But what could I do ? So what's new with you ? Take care of yourself Joann and have a fantastic Xmas xxx ❤️🌺🎁🌲🌹🌷🌼🌸💐🌻