Thread:Hannahc12/@comment-32738051-20160709224206

You removed a recent post on one of the forums because you felt you shouldn't have posted it. But obviously you were - are - having doubts and those doubts didn't go away just because you removed the post. And so I'd like to respond and my answer to your question is goodness no, Hannah. Please read and believe these words because every one of them is true. No one wants you to leave this Wiki. Everyone wants you to stay and moreover we want to help you where we can. You have real health issues and one side effect of them is you have a tough time emotionally. But I don't think this makes you unstable or pathetic and you are neither stupid nor useless. In fact, I think you prove your intelligence and capability every time you relate every success you've had in your situation: your calls to various resources for assistance, posting your story on GoFundMe and your success with it, reaching out to all of us through your posts here, your emails with those of us with whom you've shared yours, your continued perseverance despite how difficult it is for you and how much it makes your emotions swing. There is strength and courage in every step you take to make things better for yourself and your family.

You ask why you can't be normal. Well, I would ask what is normal? Your situation is pretty bad, yes, but there are a lot of people here who have problems financially, emotionally and/or being able to move forward in our lives. Are any of us any less normal for it? I don't think so. In fact, as sad a thing as it may be to say, if anything is normal these days, it is probably having such issues. Kind of makes you wonder why you would want to be normal, doesn't it? 😉

So don't hate yourself. You have much to be proud of. And don't leave us. Not now. Right now it's hard because, from everything you've told us, this is the first time, perhaps in your life, that you've had a community accept you and that you've had a large and strong support structure. It takes time to get used to the good when you're so used to the bad. And you'll continue to have the bad every now and then along with the good. For awhile it will make your emotional swings worse and that's to be expected. But eventually, you will get on a more even keel and the bad will hurt less and be less frequent and the good will feel better and become more frequent. All you have to do to get there is to keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep reaching out to all of us who care for you and are rooting for you. I know it was hard for you to read this and I'm sorry if it causes your emotions to swing worse for a little bit but it is just for a little bit and I really hope it helps you more than it makes you emotional. Hang in there and know that we're all hanging in there with you. Feel the love. 😍💝❤💗💕💖👪👪👪👪👪 